31 Poems

It is hard to see the words
written about you
seemed like such a pleasant place
Though you say otherwise
Sometimes I have to stop
And look away
And take a breath
Certain moments feel stolen
It seems unreal
No....
I just wish it was
But who am I to wish it away
It hurts to see that past
written like a timeline
A harsh reminder
that I wasn't there
A slap in the face almost
But it was my own choice
and your own path
Couldn't it have been written in sand?
Or just not at all?
I have to look away again
too much
Too much

31 Poems

He asked
What makes you whole?

Love, they answered
Peace
Health, joy, contentment
The smiled and said
Happiness
Compassion

And I sat there quietly
With that bitch grin on my face
Thinking
All I need is a bangin' pair of jeans
And a good credit score

31 Poems/6

I choose
to close doors behind me
and let the past be
I keep good memories close
and the others can stay behind
I choose
happiness
though the risk is great
and the price is high
and the road is difficult as hell
the result is...invaluable
I choose
to fight fear
or at least try
or at least sucker punch it and run
I choose
to let go
of what what hurts
and hold tight to what heals
and use ice cream as a band aid if I am so inclined
I choose
to laugh
even if no one else thinks its funny
I choose
to be
myself
even if it is a lonely choice

31 Poems/5

He says I failed the test
I say fuck you
Must be hard being a saint

31 Poems

my dear friend
the gypsy cowgirl
escaped to Colorado
I smile for her heart
and every snow angel she will make
and every frost covered feather
I am proud of her courage
and her brave soul
for taking a chance
and walking down a new road
with nothing but light her eyes
i'm proud of her leaps
and how she has recovered from her falls
and if I ever believed that heroes existed
(thought i'm still not entirely convinced)
i think it would be you, dear heart